So, soon after Jack and I broke up, he said to me that something I could do for him was, once I was ready, to talk about everything that had happened. He thought that would help him in the future.
So, a few weeks ago I sent him an email, saying that I was ready to talk if he still wanted to. I made a point of saying that if he didn't want to anymore, that was fine. We could just leave it in the past.
But, he said he was free for lunch, so we met up. We talked about nothing much, just catching up on friends, family and work. And then he said, "Right then, out with it".
I said, "With what?".
"Well, you obviously have something to say to me".
I said I didn't, it was just hat he had wanted to talk and now I was ready. I said, "So, there's nothing you want to ask? Nothing you want to know?". And he said no, that he had been interested three months ago, but wasn't anymore.
That hurt so much. I looked in his eyes and saw anger and that he wanted to hurt me. There was no love there anymore. Which is fine, but why did he make me go through that lunch? Why didn't he just say that he was over it and didn't need to talk anymore?
I can only think of a few possible reasons:
- He was expecting me to say that I wanted to get back together, and I didn't.
- He wanted to cause me pain and show me that he was over me.
What else? I don't know. But it took the rose coloured glasses off my view of our relationship. I remembered why we were so different. And I knew it was over. Really over.
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